My Life as it is Today

There’s a lot to report, because obviously, it’s been way too long since I’ve written a blog post.

The reason I haven’t been blogging is not that I haven’t been writing or that I forgot about the blog–it’s that my spiritual life has been very dry for quite some time. At first I made attempts to commune with God and enjoy the testimonies of my church family, but eventually it became clear that it was not succeeding and that I was not living as God would have me. And so I stopped even trying.

This is a confession of my weakness and low self-will. I was tired of working, tired of trying, and I let life just blow by me. I didn’t fight for joy and peace in God, and I was driven to depression several times. I was tossed about like chaff in the wind.

But that isn’t what this blog post is about. I have very little self-will and self-discipline, and I’m terribly lazy. But now that you know that, you can see what a great god God really is!

Even though I was in a slump, crying because I knew I ought to read the Bible but I didn’t want to, God still brought me around and thrust the Bible in my lap and told me, “Back to the basics. You don’t need long hours of prayer and penitence. You don’t need all your theology straight. You don’t need all the wisdom you want, nor all the growth you want. You don’t even need to feel the passion you want all the time. Just set aside a small part of your day for me, and let me give you the wisdom, growth, and passion.”

Very basic, very simple. I just needed to start like I was saved yesterday. Who knows, maybe I was, though I don’t think that is the case.

After months of not reading the Bible and praying, and weeks of depression and knowing that I’ll never find joy again–I’m finally communing with God! I’m reading the Bible, not to impress my friends with the deep theological implications of it, but just to read what it says, literally, simply, and go back to the basics of being a Christian.

Before this dry season (that’s the best way I can put it) I had been ecstatic about all the Lord had given me, family, church, a job, a home, food, trips to Mexico, not to mention a niece.

After I stopped reading my Bible daily and praying often, I lost all the joy I had. I lost all the thankfulness I had, though I knew in my head that I ought to be thankful.

Now I feel like I have it all back.

I have joy in my future since my confidence in Christ has been proven true one more time. I know that my future belongs to God.

There’s a couple people who have already told me they were praying for me. I’m so blessed. So blessed to have the church family I have, the friends I have. I’m so blessed to have the Lord shaping me one day at a time. He is increasing the time I spend in the Bible daily, and even though I know I’m going to fail again and again, I know that He is faithful and so very good.

People have been praying for me, but I haven’t been praying for them. I want to begin again with the strength God has given me to pray for the people I vowed to pray for, and those who need it. Please let me know how I can help you.

In Christ,
Ellie

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Perspectives

Do you know how much 1 trillion dollars is? The height of a stack of 1,000,000,000,000 one dollar bills measures 67,866 miles. This would reach more than one fourth the way from the earth to the moon. The length of 1 trillion one dollar bills laid end-to-end measures 96,906,656 miles. This would exceed the distance from the earth to the sun. It would reach to the moon and back 20 times.

1 trillion is more than you can imagine. 1 trillion is more than you can view. 1 trillion is an amazing number.

Keep this in mind while you view our National debt here. Go take a look at it. Seriously. And that’s just the on-budget debt.

Can you imagine a pile of money that big? In order to get rid of this debt, we would need years to just stop spending money and then years reversing our spending, and then years of keeping that up.

I heard a parable once of a young boy who finds a shiny quarter on the side of the road. He is delighted—he takes it to the White House. He holds up his quarter and says, “I want to use this quarter to help pay our national debt.”

Do you see? It’s a joke. The boy doesn’t even have a chance of getting in the White House.

You can’t pay the debt. And unless you get some amazing big bucks, you can’t even put a dent in it. You can’t pay it. You never will.

Imagine that the National debt was your own personal debt. You can’t take it away, not a bit, and you can’t even stop it from growing. Everything you have will be taken away, even your life. If someone paid that debt for you, the whole thing, and paid enough to cover everything you will ever need—rate 1-10, how devoted would you be to that person?

The debt Jesus paid for us is more than a thousand National debts. He gave His very life to purchase us.

I want to remind everyone that what Jesus did for you is more than anything anyone can, or will ever do for you. We need to stop trying to give Him works, and just give Him our life.

And I’d like to point out one more thing on the side, you can’t get into the White House. If you do get into the White House, you can’t simply see the President. If you do somehow meet with the President, I can promise you that time and requests are limited. But God invites us into His very throne room. He delights to hear our petitions. He commands us to meet with Him. So even though we can never pay our debt, we can still enjoy a wonderful personal relationship with Him.

In Christ,

Ellie

Gracie

 

My baby sister turned 10 Saturday. See the beautiful chick with long, golden hair? That’s her.

She’s incredible. She is always first to serve, last to grow angry. First to listen and last to speak. She seems to have taught me much more than I have taught her, because reading was never as important as character. I wish I could put in a blog post what she means to me, but I can’t. I can only say that without her life would mean much much less. She’s my sunshine.

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I love you Gracie!

 

Yours Truly

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